Chapter 9 : Exciting Day

On the 01/08/2010(Sunday) is the most exciting day that I ever had because today me together with my parents went shopping at Mahkota Parade. Before going to shopping me and my dad need to pick up my mom at her school that she had something going on at her school and during that time I was a little bit down because got mad with my mom yesterday and thoughts of not willing to study anymore. I think my parents noticed that then they brought me to shopping which I love so much. First,my dad convert his Maybank Visa points into RM 200 worth voucher and my dad ask me to finish up all the voucher by buying clothes and pants but I only used until RM 150 because I don't know what else to buy,hehe. After that, we planned to eat Pizza Hut as our dinner before we got home and slightly my parents agreed to buy me a new smartphone y'all since my old phone got problem and my dad bought me a new SAMSUNG MONTE which I love and I can't keep my eyes off from that phone since it is the first phone that my dad bought for me. I said Thank You So Much to my parents especially my dad and my parents ask me to study really hard and I will if God's Will. I know why my parents did this to me and I just wanna keep that only in me. Thank You So Much Mummy Daddy and I Love U So Much!!

Chapter 8 : A Trip to Nowhere

Today Sabtu(24/07/2010)just duduk kt dlm bilik tapi sy and roomate sy ade la nk plan ke Sunway Piramid pg ni.So we all pn siap2 la tunggu bas nk ke seksyen 2 Shah Alam n tukar bas ke Kompleks PKNS n ke Sunway Piramid.Lepas we all sampai kat stesen bas 2 we all tunggu la bas nk ke Kompleks PKNS about 10 minutes cm 2 tp bas xsampai2 pn tp byk bas U80 ke Pasar Seni and KL Sentral.Sy ckp dgn rumate sy yg cm jodoh kite ni nk ke KL je.So we all pn decide pergi ke KL terus huhu and we all stop kat KL Sentral and after sampai kat KL Sentral 2 we all pulak xtao nk gi mane and biler masing2 dh rangka nk ke mane then we all decide nk gi ke Times Square then we all naik la KL Monorail ke JLN IMBI.Lepas dah puas shopping dalam 2,pukul 2ptg cm 2 we all gi lak ke SOGO,so we all naik balik KL Monorail stop kat stesen Hang Tuah and tukar naik STAR LRT ke Bandaraya and sampai la ke SOGO.Ok as usual SOGO every day sale and me and my rumate giler2 shopping kat dalam 2 sampai x ingat dunia.Sy just beli seluar and baju untuk ke class n casual purposes only.Lepas dah puas shopping kat SOGO then we all pn decide la nak balik ke UiTM coz memamg xleh nk duk lame2 kt KL lg coz might get 'Shopaholic Diseases'.We all pn naik la komuter kat Bank Negara ke KL Sentral and tunggu bas U80 ke Seksyen 2 Shah Alam,lepas sampai kat Seksyen 2 tu we all pn ingat nak beli dinner tapi xde yang interesting so we all terus naik bas balik ke UiTM then we all pn balik la ke kolej.This is one of the best trip that I have been to,A Trip to Nowhere..I felt like this World is Mine!

Chapter 7 : Embrassment

Sepnjg duk kt UiTM Shah Alam ni byk bnde yg sy lalui.Paling memalukan and byk menyusahkan org adalah terutama sekali apabila minta pertolongan drpd people.Ok,hari ini bersamaan hari Jumaat(23/07/2010),biase la biler dh habis waktu kelas time mid day and ramai la yg kuar nk pergi smyg Jumaat kt luar.Sy tunggu kat bus stop yg biasenye sy tunggu bus nk balik ke kolej.Dh la kt situ sesak giler dgn kereta and bus pulak x datang langsung student makin ramai tunggu nk naek bus.For about 1 and a half hour sy tunggu nk naek bus,biler bus dlm 5 buah dh dtg xleh nk naek langsung coz trlalu ramai giler.Sy pn tunggu la untuk next bus and still xleh nk naek coz ramai giler.Sy tunggu bus tepi jalan sambil mata berair,malu giler sy rase at this time.Kwn sy tanye why sy nangis?sy ckp sy nk balik coz dh xtahan dgn panas nye,then my fren said sabar la ni semua dugaan.Sy mmg dh than giler tunggu bus drpd kereta sesak nk keluar gi smyg sampai reda keadaan lalu lintas,then sy call my 'fren' lecturer kt Fakulti Sains Gunaan untuk minta tolong ambik saya kt bus stop tu and bwk balik ke kolej.Sblum blik kolej tu we all gi seksyen 7 dlu tapau makanan untuk lunch.Actually my 'fren' tu my bro's ex-gf and sy terpaksa minta tolong die coz dh xtao nk minta tolong kt sape.So macam tu jelah cerita sy hari ni.If I got anything else I'll post it as soon as possible~

Chapter 6 : H.E.L.P

It's been 3rd week now since in Uitm and had face many problems..Salah satunye "HELP" yg susah utk didptkan di sini..mula2 masuk cm2 la nk kena byar n uruskn which needs transportation yg leh di bawa di skitar shah alam..bile mntk tlong kwn smuenye berat je nk bg tlong tp sy still lg brsyukur n Alhamdullilah cz msih lg dpt prtlongan drpd kwn..when talk about my classmates ni hmm xtau la nk ckp cmne lg smuenye jnis ade kepala n attitude sndri,not 1Malaysia at all..ok sebenarnye classmates sy ni yg coursemate dlu kt Uitm dungun which we all mmg x close lngsung drpd azali lg..dlu kt dungun course hotel ade 2 klas n sy klas 2nd which ktorg close gk la..bile dh smbung dgree ni rmai drpd 1st klas n kwn2 rpat sy smunye x smbung blaja so when nk wt group assignment we need a group consist of persons rite?ni x diorg dh siap2 ambk group diorg n 3 persons being left out just like that hanging in the air without any strings..mmg prsaan 2 geram sgt,of course la those 3 persons 2 including me but can other people think about us n how we feel?kdang2 org ni smuenye xde hati n prsaan btul..mmg terasa sgt environment 2 mmg lekang antara kami smue,xtau nk ckp cmne lg dh..sometimes bile bnde2 cmni blaku mood nk blaja 2 mmg dh xde lngsung n smangat 2 lg dh lame ilang nk blaja since jejak kaki kt Uitm..mmg la org slalu ckp "it's ok,u will find new frens"..hmm dlm keadaan cmni cmne nk cri kwn n apatah lg nk dpt kwn yg leh bg kte ape mksud "friend",mmg susah nk cri dlm zaman skrg,mmg skrg ni dh terasa dlm kelas 2 sy insignificant btul n nobody ever cares to talk to me..hmm ALLAH jelah yg tao how I feel..n I got news today that my senior dh kembali ke rahmatullah because of Denggi,n smpai skrg sy still lg brsyukur cz sy survive drpd denggi dlu mase bln 3..Al-Fatihah

Chapter 5 : Speak Out Loud!!!

Ah bosannye hidup sorg2 ni..ok I only got 3 siblings, sulung abg and 2nd 2 akak la..it was started time sy umur 11thn I think, my bro dh msuk matrix and my sis dh msuk mrsm time fom 1..so tinggal la sy sorg2 kt umah dgn mak n babah, it was fun at a moment cz dpt luangkn mase dgn parents berdua je..but as a person growing up at that time mmg sgt mmbosankn by not having anyone else besides me and it is very lonely for me..ade siblings pn tp kne duk kt umh sorg2 je,and I slalu berangan biler blik skola leh maen2 dgn siblings and riuh la ckit umh 2 xde la snyap sgt biler blik umh 2..sbb 2 sy suke gi skola n hang out with my frens cz environment nye mriah n sy xrase sunyi pn..lgpn as I growing up to teenage girl sy nk la gk ade tmpt n org utk bercerita n meluahkn prasaan but I didn't get any of that chances when I was younger..that's why sy slalu duk sorg2 dlm umh n blik cz xde spe2 pn nk brckp as my prents are bz with work..every night sy tito kt katil yg bsar 2 sorg2 je,xde org tman pn..ade 1 mase 2 sy trpksa tito dgn prents utk bbrapa bln cz sy tkot sgt tito sorg2 especially time kilat n guruh that is my weakest point..tp lame2 as I think sy kena gak tito sorg2 cz mmg cm 2 la hakikatnye,xkn brubah dgn ade org akn brganti utk tmankn sy time tito..sy really close with my sis leh dikatekn every story sy cite la dgn my sis smpai as i rmember time ayah sy ambik my sis kt mrsm cti skola and they reached home around midnite and sy sruh my mom wake me up if they dh smpai umah just to hug my sis cz I really miss her that time..when I was 16 years old I think,my sis got offer to further study kt United States and my sis pn g la United States kt Rochester,New York for 3 and a half years..during that 3 years and a half there are many things happen,the biggest thing is after sy finish up sit for my SPM exam and my dad breaking out the news by moving to Bangi,Selangor which is bigger city than before,Muar..I have great and warm friends back in school but eventually I had to leave them,sbnrnye dh byk plans and ade plans yg really2 dh cnfirm ktorg nk wt lps abis SPM and my parents really push me to follow them..sy mmg sdih sgt3 time 2 yg hanya Allah jelah yg tao cmne prsaan sy time 2..time 2 kdang2 sy trpkir yg are my prents really understand how am I in that situation?tp nk wt cmne dh takdir n nasib,so I just follow them..mulanye2 mmg xsuke sgt and slowly sy dpt rsekn yg sy really jauh dgn my frens and it was really painful as u can feel that one-by-one your frens slowly to disappear..then I tried to get over it by jln2 kt kl which is my house at bangi dkat dgn komuter so mmg snang la nk gi jln2 kt kl..bln 3 thn 2007 genap 1thn my best fren meninggal cz he was hit by trailer time tgh cross jln..as a teenage girl sy nk try gk fren2 dgn bdk laki,sy knl dgn sorg bdk ni skola kt teknik muar and ktorg fren2 for 1 year and broke up cz I found out he really wasn't a boy for me and both of us is still really young so a lot of things should be focusing on during that time..then mid year 2007 sy dpt offer smbung blaja kt UiTM Dungun,Terengganu for 3 years and sy g la daftar kt sane..blik2 cuti sem 2 best la cz duk bangi n byk tmpt leh nk g,naek kmuter g kl or drive g alamanda kt putrajaya..time sy sem 3 to 4,sy ade la fren2 dgn sorg bdk asasi uia,sbnrnye die bdk muar gk cz dlu time skola slalu la gk prsan time tuisyen sme2 dlu..n sy found out that he is a very sophisticated and materialistic nye guy,jnis nk yg lawa2 n brbody nye girl and yet so many times die pnh ckp dgn sy yg die dh xde prsaan kt sy and yet sy pn bdoh still not leaving him,about 4 months cm 2 we all broke up cz he's leaving for another girl,and I was really sad and yet really silly cz before this still dating him even he got feeling at another girl..however life still moves on,then biler dh single 2 hidup la sorg2 as back to normal..stories cmni mmg slalunye sy ckp dgn my sis tp my sis dh ade kt luar ngara n susah nk always connected..n then lps abis blaja kt dungun for 3 years and sy duk jelah umh,mmg boring tramat sgt cz during weekday both of my parents g keje so sy duk jelah umah sorg2..and once again my dad breaking out the news by moving to ayer molek,melaka which is a place that so far away from the town..once again when I have frens kt bangi my dad msti pindah kt tmpt len,n time ni mmg dh xleh nk kuarkn air mata cz dh trlmpau kebal sgt hati ni cm someone took my happiness shockly just like that,nk la gk dh abis blaja 2 g jln2 dgn kwn2 nk release stress..mmg xbest pindah randah ni cz nk cari kwn2 ni mngambil mase,n pindah kt tmpt mmg jauh drpd population mmg xde n xdpt nk g jln2..my dearest parents,if u ask any person at my age about this situation they will say that they will be very lonely and bored since it is a place with no interest at all..i feel so down and sesak nafas time duk kt umh 2 for about 2 months,Ya Allah perit n boringnye mmg trlmpau yg amat sgt since pg2 dh kne duk umh pg sorg2..sy ingt lg when my dad ckp time pndah ke bangi yg sy leh brjln2 kt kl dgn kwn2 but in the end pndah ke tmpt yg sunyi gk..then during cuti 2 months 2 sy ingt nk kje part time la kt mne2 hotel or restaurant since sy dlm industry ni which require more experience than theory but my prents mmg xbg,sy rse cm trikat sgt nk wt kptusan sndri dlm idup,wt ni xleh wt 2 xleh..we can't make a perfect plan for our children just to get them success tp hakiki nye ati n prsaan kte kabur di mata..then bln 7 2010 sy dpt offer smbung blaja kt UiTM Shah Alam tp sblm 2 sy gi vacation kt penang cz kt sne kmpung nenek n pkcik sy so sy stay kt sne just to get boringness hilang and I can feel the environment that surrounded by people..sbnrnye hepy la gk dpt smbung blaja cz jauh drpd umh,going to big city,surrounded by people,tp ade gk unhepy nye cz sy mmg xde mood sgt nk blaja,tp dh desakan n drongan family so sy trpksa gk go on dgn their choice..n dh msuk dftr kt shah alam kwn2 rpat sy smue xsmbung blaja n I end up sorg2,tp ade la sorg ni dlu coursemate kt dungun n leh than rpat gk la then sy rpat dgn die la skrg ni..bese la br msuk blaja cm2 nk kne byar yran klej n kne anta borang,lao tmpt nye 1 je xpe la ni 1 kt utara 1 kt slatan so quite susah la nk g since bas xlalu area 2..mntk tlng kwn ni la smuenye cm berat je nk bg tlong n kdang2 sy dh smpai malu sgt2 muka ni tebal mntk tlng cz kt cni mmg sy xtao nk mntk tlong spe lg..wlaupn kwn 2 mmg dh byk tlng tp sy leh nmpk btapa beratnye mukanye nk bg tlng..sdih sgt ati sy ni n mase blaja kt dungun sy slalu berangan n excited sgt yg lao sy dpt smbung blaja kt shah alam umh dkat nk blik(lao kt bangi la) every week n lao ade pape prents xjauh sgt,but all of my dreams are booming away from me..lg sdih gk time kwn sy 2 snang je abg,akk,abg ipar,or akk ipr die nk dtg ambk die kt shah alam utk blik umh dorg evry weekend n sy terasa sgt why I didnt't get that chances?since right now my bro n sis alredy married lg la sy tinggal sorg2..sy dpt rse kn my heart is empty..but my family always the best and sy selalu berdoa pd Allah yg 1hari t sy akan dpt kebhagiaan yg teramat sgt utk mngubati kesunyian n burden in my heart..ble sy dh khwin t sy nk anak rmai cz sy xnk hidup dlm kesunyian lg n most importantly sy xnk anak2 sy melalui ape sy dh tempuhi skrg ni and I know how it feels like..to my beloved family,ni luahan hati adik selama dh 10thn trpendam and 10-years of loneliness,nmpk adik might be smiling n hepy but I didn't,this is why I always duk sorg2 je..I think my heart dh kebal sgt if anything happens again and only tears will fall down and starting today I want to be who I wanna be, I don't want to hide anymore..plz forgive me if my story will make u feel angry or sad and this is the only thing I can do n say..think me as the longest and youngest child stayed at home and this is how I feel like,u always think about sis that so far away but your child that is so near to you might not know how she feels..thank you so much 4 everything,but loneliness has been by my side since 10 years ago..I'm Sorry

Chapter 4 : Welcome Back~

Ok..mmg dh lame btul tertunggak penulisan sy di blog ni..hmpir 2 bulan rsenye..tp sy bz dgn hari 2 seminggu gi vacation kt penang before return back to melaka yg akan mengadakan aktiviti giler2 cz kne gi wt mdical check up, byar yuran, and kne dptkn suntikan thyphoid..huhu bese la dh nk smbung blaja ni kne la prepare cm2 dr segi physically and mentally..Alhamdullilah skrg sy dh slmat mndaftarkn diri di UiTM Shah Alam under course Ijazah Sarjana Muda Sains(Kepujian)Pengurusan Hotel minor in Tourism..tp agak sdey la cz all of my close frens aren't here to further study,trpakse la sorg2 gak akhrnye..Insyallah sy akan keep updating my blog if I got story to tell..

Chapter 3 : Gudnite n Sweetdreamz...?

More than a week I just moved from Bangi to Ayer Molek,Melaka. It's a place with very quiet n peaceful 'village like' environment an also a very beautiful scenery and just about 2 or 3 days ago I saw rainbow rite in front of my house in Melaka. It's really cool. Hari yg nk pindah 2 my friend n my cousin came along 2 help my family out n we spend few days together in the new house then diorg balik rumah semula la. Lps 2 start la tito sorg2, mule2 ok n everything sbnrnye ok tp sjak2 ni xleh nk tito mcm pkir bnde2 plik since rumah ni sgt besar n time pg duk sorg2. For the past few days I think, mule la dpt horror dreams n mimpi ni cm berseksyen2. Mule2 nye dlm mimpi 2 sy n around 10 other people pegi ke tmpt or something cm tmpt org yg wt research for paranormal activities tp setiap seksyen ade la orgnye sendiri yg conduct utk keluarkn those paranormal 2 utk tnjukkan bukti 'mereka' 2 ade di situ. Utk stiap seksyen ni knonnye la die kuarkn different ghosts cthnye cm 1st section for 'pontianak' n 2nd section for 'jin' or anything else la. My horror dream begins with 1st section, me n the rest of the 10 persons went to see the 1st paranormal conductor n die start la sebut 'jampi seranah' die 2 n result die xde la any paranormal 2 came out n time 2 prasaan sy sgt takut n sy buka kn mata n ucap "Ya Allah,Alhamdullillah aku dh sedar". Then bila sy ttup mate blik utk tito n horror dream 2 brsmbung blik. Ni 2nd section, same thing kami gi jmpe 2nd paranormal conductor n die mula la 'jampi seranah' die 2 lg n as usual resultnye xde la paranormal 2 kuar n also after that sy buka kn mata n ucapkn da same thing n these things happened again for the 3rd n 4th section. Tp yg peliknye kn bila dh tiba kt section sterusnye bil org drpd about 10 persons 2 mkin brkurangan, gi section sterusnye mkin kurang lg tp sy xtao la mane org 2 smue gi maybe diorg tkot kot. Then smpai kt 4th section, trmasuk sy dlm 3 or 4 org je yg tinggal n time 2 kami smue dlm kdudukan bersila, 4th paranormal conductor 2 mula la ckp 'jampi seranah' die n tibe2 kt hujung belah kiri jaraknye dlm 50m cm 2 la sy trnmpak ade pmpuan rmbut pendek lurus lalu muke die menakutkn tp sy xckp pape la just diam je n 2nd time nye dlm jarak yg same gk la ade sy trnmpk sorg pmpn rmbut pnjg yg kusut masai n muke die menakutkn pas2 mkin lame 'die' mkin dkat n sy rase nk mula jerit cz bulu roma sy ni dh meremang dh dgn environmrnt die yg seram sejuk 2 n tibe2 sy terjage from tito cz time 2 pn dh kul 9a.m. smething la n sy ucap skali lg "Ya Allah,Alhamdullillah aku dh sedar" tp lps 2 mmg rase pnat sgt bdn ni smpai x terkate. So, is it gudnite n sweetdreamz..?bg sy menakutkn smpai skrg ni n lao nk tito sorg2 dlm blik 2 kne tgk keliling dlu n most of da nites sy xleh nk tito. Dlm kul 3pg cm 2 br leh nk tito tp nk wt cm mane kne kuatkn ati ni gak la. So that's it for da horror dream. bYe2!!

*P/s : Pls forgive my Malenglishness. TQ

Chapter 2 : Wedding Ceremonies

As usual by the end of May and early June are the most famous dates for families to plan their children wedding. Just now I went to another wedding ceremony.

22nd May 2010 - Akad Nikah Kak Nadlene(adik kak Nadia)mlm lps Isyak.
23rd May 2010 - Sambutan perkahwinan Kak Nadlene.
6th June 2010 - My SISTA getting married.
I jd pengapit die utk hari ni.hehe...
12th June 2010 - Sambutan perkahwinan Abg Naqiuddin belah Kelantan together with all
my siblings n pakcik2 makcik2 belah mak n babah.

Then, lps 2 kne kemas rumah balik.

17th June 2010 - My SISTA n Abg Naqiuddin dh balik semula ke Manchester.

Chapter 1 : Introduction

Apa Khabar semua..
Hello Everyone..
Konichiwa minna-san..
Annyoung..
Bonjour tout le monde..

Since I'm the newbie here so I guess I will be taking sometimes to update my blog but I will work hard on that since I'm not doing anything in my life particularly rite now. Still in the process of learning through out the blogging thing but I need my Unnie and Shisuta-san help. So sis, if you reading, HELP ME!!!!haha..By the way I will make my page interesting as i could, wish me luck.Oh if anyone have facebook please do add me with this email fariza_duncan@yahoo.com..

Since I'm a big fan of korean especially boy band TVXQ/DBSK/TOHOSHINKI, this one of my faveret music video ever!!! So, ENJOY!!!!

TVXQ - Rising Sun